Aggressive Phantasies

One researcher Dr Penny Spikins helps to enlighten us on her research on caveman society, noting how "they had 'a deep seated sense of compassion' for sick and weak members of their society. ...". Her article on 'The Prehistory of Compassion' also states, "Managing our complex sense of compassion for others is far from straightforward. Caring for the objects, animals or people to whom we have made a commitment can generate conflicts... Research has shown that some of us (up to 30% in modern western society) are predominantly self-focused in our motivations in close personal relationships even though the majority of us are predominantly other focused...".

Courtesy Dr Penny Spikins, Holly Rutherford and Andy Needham

AGGRESSOR 101 MATRIX

So, you are the Master of all knowledge, are you?

“Yes, kill or be killed, annihilate the enemy, always

Make instant gratification a priority in the present and

Care for no one; that includes family and friends”.



And, if you don’t mind me asking, what does a person

Get from a regressive attitude? “Peace and calm in the heart”.

Peace and calm in the heart? So by doing excessive

‘Aggression’, do you mean you get peace and calm?



I can appreciate, that might be your highest

Intention, however, I just wondered, have you

Ever thought about doing ‘love’ and caring about your family

And friends, to actually get peace and calm in your heart?



Beyond survival and a sense of guilt, it's much better to

Be motivated towards win-win  isn't it.

(c) Jennifer Hooper 2010

Skin Layer 1

SKIN LAYER 1


In the room by myself
With the TV on
In the background.
I put my laptop to use,
Whilst I look at my skin
And note how smooth
It is and how I feel calm.

But soon enough,
A memory emerges
Of how different it can be,
When you are here with me
And the texture of my skin
Gradually changes
To goose pumps.


I feel tension in my head.
I guess because I dread
To think of the possibility
Of you getting under my skin,
Like an invasion when you

Simply wish to win the argument
By personal possession of
My soul as a moveable thing.

(c) Copyright Jennifer Hooper 2009-2010

Scientifically a protective barrier and also a metaphor  as a subjective experience of a sense of physiological and psychological penetration, that is, of the skin. Full narrative comprises of Skin Layer 1 representing a ubiquitous sense of control, the Skin Layer 2 being skin deep as identity, and Skin Layer 3 the foundation of a whole organ made in God’s love. Overall an autonomous organ that gives shape to "me" and yet there exists another force competing for ownership.  Poems 2 and 3 will be released in my second moving forward continued autobiography. (Skin Layer 1, is featured in my first contribution to an anthology in 2010, edited by Nicole Moore, Founder of Shangwe Writers.)

Waterstone Memoir

So how did the reading at Waterstone in Enfield go on Friday night? After snail crawling with the car through the Pope’s diverted traffic on the A406 and the Great Cambridge Road in Enfield with my son Lawrence, very well. In a cosy setting with some like-minded friends I felt at home with my writing colleagues and friends.

Whereas Patsy read first, I read last and I am not sure what that means in terms of being remembered? However, I do wonder what Freud might have made of it, that is, whether being last might mean that I could be forgotten or by being last I could actually be remembered as the final impact!

Well I read my poem on the theme of Skin entitled Skin Layer. This poem is in fact ‘Skin Layer 1’ as there are numbers 2 and 3 that follow on in terms of going into metaphor of what layers mean to me. Like in therapy the analogy could be digging deeper for interpretation to find meaning.

Of the four of us that read, this poem was the shortest but by no means the least informative on the concept of objects and relationships, as I do I like to provide hints, mystery, abstract and a certain revelation of my world in my works. However, I believe that it is the reading that gives away the most telling clues of the history, circumstances and plausibility of an actual event being remembered.

Thanks to my Powerful Presenting skills, gained from the empowering mix of Murielle Maupoint and Helen Emms, I stood with poise, confidence, pause and character. After all there is much enjoyment in doing a satisfying reading knowing that the audience appreciated it and the delivery was brilliant.  I do add that most of my poems are quite spontaneous.

One evening when ‘I put my laptop to use...’, I simply found myself being carried away as if unconsciously recalling a phantasy, even though one could say equally that it was likely my internal world then, in my time line of events.

I can only thank Nicole Moore for inviting me to the reading and no doubt us Shangwe Writers will continue to write about our worlds from a female black or mixed raced perspective to share our experiences with the world and in doing so maybe there might be a collective experience in some way that we individually may have encountered.

Shangwe Lulu - promotor of female black or mixed raced writers

http://www.shawana-lulu.blogspot.com/

 

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